Letters to Someone [Private/Shana]

[marik]

Dear Shana,

I'm sorry for breaking off our relationship so harshly. It's been a hard without you, but for me, not as hard as it was being with you. It wasn't working Shana. It was never going to work! I was raised to be a respectful, moral, just man. Just being with you goes against everything I was raised for! You've attacked tamers for the heck of it or over petty vengance. You've damaged homes with no regret! You flaunt your self-proclaimed status as 'Greatest Tamer' like some trophy. You bully your little sister, you push Aruraumon so hard you risk getting her killed in battle, you so recklessly jump into battle yourself and risk getting yourself killed.

I've wanted this to work so much. I tried to make it work. Asked you to slow down, I thought you'd respect that I can't stand your fighting, but then you just sneak away and attack some bloke and his Renamon who nearly ended up killing you. I can't trust you Shana, and for it I constantly wonder if you've ended up in another fight, and worry you've gotten yourself killed. I can't live with that Shana, I can't! You act like your invincible, but you aren't. You are a reckless tamer and fighter, and you won't stand a chance against a true opponent.

Shana, I made a huge mistake falling for you. I fell for you when you were healing from your broken leg. When you couldn't fight. I saw the person you were behind all the fighting, and that is who I fell in love with. Then when your leg healed and suddenly the person I fell in love with was gone. I stayed because I thought I could bring it back, but that, I believe was a hopeless venture. I can't make you stop fighting. I should never have tried. It was a selfish attempt.

It'd be better if we just... stayed apart. Being together was just pain for both of us. I can't make myself love who you really are, and I can see the hurt in your eyes when I lose myself from frustration of being with you. It will hurt for a while, but those wounds will heal. I don't know if I'll ever stop thinking of you, but, it's for the best. It's for the best.

~Sincerely;
Marik Ichiko

[Shana Hitoehi]

Dear Marik-kun,

Ever sense you broke up with me I haven't gone a single day with out thinking about you because you are the best boyfriend I could ever have and my future means nothing to me if you are not going two be a part of it and I know that we may have some issues but I want you to be a part of my life and I don't know how far I can get without you because you keep me grounded and my life has been so much better sense you became a part of it. I want to be your girlfriend because I love you and I think that we belong together forever.

Before I met you I thought that boys were gross but then you showed me that is not true. I like to fight, but not as much as I like you. I like being your girlfriend. You are a good boyfriend. I promise if we get back together I will do every thing you say from now on because I love you and to me you are perfect. I want to be like we used to be and I don't no what the future holds for us but I promise I will be a better girlfriend. I can't take being apart from you so long. I want to hug you but you are out of reach. I promise Marik I'll do anything.

Please respond soon, not hearing from you is painful. I love you so much.


~Love;
Shana Hitoehi

[marik]

Shana-chan

That is another thing. It's always you. Even between us, the only persons feelings you think about is your own. Being with you causes me stress, and pain. You're aggressive attitude has repelled people who could have been friends to me, and has more often than not made me enemies I never wanted! You say you love me, and yet you still want us to be together even though it hurts me? That isn't love Shana. You want me for your own benefit. Love has to be for the benefit of both of us, and between us it just isn't.

I don't want you to change just so I'll take you back. How long would it even last? How long can you hold yourself back? How can I trust you won't just go behind my back? I don't want to be the controlling boyfriend who has to spy on his girl just to make sure she isn't doing what he doesn't want. With you I wouldn't be able to go without that, and it wouldn't be fair to you. Relationships need trust, and its just not there.

~Marik Ichiko

[Shana Hitoehi]

Marik-kun,

I'm sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry. I never meant to do any of those things to hurt you. It doesn't have to hurt. I can change and need to. I promise. Change is important because even soulmates need to learn more about each other and make themselves better for each other. We have trust and I didn't mean to break any promises. I just wanted me and Aruraumon to get stronger so that I will not lose her. Training is important or else our digimon can be defeated. Wild digimons show up sometimes and we have to fight them whether we want to or not just to protect where we live. How will we be ready for them if we do not practice. I do not want to destroy other peoples digimon. I just wanted practice. But if digimon is going to ruin our relationship, I promise to drop it forever. I'll give you all of my cards and my digivice so you know I am not fighting. Whether you do that or not though, I promise I can be better. Marik. You are the first and only non-Digimon friend I have ever had and I need you to help me be better so that you will not be my last friend. You are a great boy, and I know you are too good for me, but I think I can be better and I will not mess things up for you anymore.

~Love;
Shana Hitoehi

[marik]

Shana-chan

Practice is important, I know that Shana. Wild digimon have been appearing more and more frequently. But that doesn't mean its right to go around forcing every tamer into a fight. That isn't practice, that's an attack. If they agree to a practice battle, then it's okay, but if they say no, then you should respect their decision and leave them be. If practice was all you wanted, then you could have just as easily asked me. Kudamon hasn't really seen many fights and he could use the experience too.

You have trust Shana, not we. I... I just don't know about this. I don't want to get back into this only to end up hurt again. Perhaps it deserves a second chance, we can see how it goes. But before we get together again, I need to see that you can follow a few expectations.

One -- I want you to stop picking on Hanako. You should treat your sister with respect.

Two -- Make some friends. Remember to be respectful, and well, friendly. People will respect you more if you respect them back.

Three -- No forcing people to fight you.

Four -- Don't get into battles yourself. Digimon don't take much damage from human attacks, and digimon can easily maim you if not kill. Aruraumon needs your help in the form of commands and modify cards.

Five -- If you or Aruraumon are injured, then run. There is no cowardice in fleeing a battle you can't win.

Six -- Avoid property damage as much as possible.

Seven -- Try to show some humility, so no going on about winning someone and calling yourself worlds greatest tamer. If you win, then you win. There is no need to rub their faces in it and you aren't going to be respected for it.

Eight -- All of these expectations must be followed whether I can see you or not.

Nine -- You need to keep this all up, even after we get together and from there on. I won't hesitate to break up again if things go bad again, no matter how long it lasts. I don't give third chances.

If you think you can follow these expectations, then we can be friends, for now until I can see you are capable of following them. If you are doing well, then we can get back together again, if not, staying friends is still a possibility.

~Marik Ichiko

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[Shana Hitoehi]

Marik-kun,

I want to agree to all of your conditions... and I can agree to most of them, and I am happy and glad that you are willing to accept me still. In fact, I can follow all of your rules except one... I love my sister, Hanako, and I promise to respect her, as you say, but I can only do that if she respects me. She's always trying to get into my stuff and she comes into my room and plays with my stuff and she breaks stuff and she doesn't ask and I can't be nice to nice to her or she will take advantage of me and my stuff. I promise I won't hit her much, or hard, though. Is that okay?

Second. I like and can agree to all of your conditions, but can't we be a little bit more than friends if I follow them? I like being your girlfriend, and I like hugging you and kissing you, and I don't think we're supposed to do that if we aren't together because that would be wrong. I like being close to you Marik and I love you either way, so how would being girlfriend-boyfriend hurt us? I don't want other boys. Do you want other girls?

~Love;
Shana Hitoehi

[marik]

Shana-chan,

Perhaps we can sit her down talk to her about respecting your stuff. I'm sure she'll learn to respect you more if we talk to her about it and set some ground rules for her. We'll see what we can do on that front.

Shana, I don't want to dive back in to this head first. I want to do this, but I want to do it slow, and I want to see progress for myself before we are officially together again. Just do your best to show you are following the expectations and hopefully we won't have to wait too long.

~ Marik Ichiko

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